Greek, Bisexuals and the Closet

But what went wrong?

Here I was with a Greek-American hottie, who is not only physically hot as in attractive, but also hot as in body temperature hot! What was it that turned me off? Was it his sense of urgency of getting things done, over and done with? Or the fact that he is an “in-closet” bisexual? Or that he kissed like a straight guy at the same time was crazy about the idea of having anal sex? Was it true then that bisexuals are more self-centered or more fixated on sex itself than anything else? Like a friend told me 99.9 % of heterosexual men are…so bisexuals got the worst of two worlds, the selfishness of straight men added to it the exaltation of sex itself that most gay men have..

It all comes to whether sex purely serves a physical function or whether it serves something more, something emotional or psychological.. and if so is it possible that some people can divorce sex from its emotional and psychological meaning and restrict it to its physical meaning? And if such people exist, and obviously they do in abundance, why are some more successful than others?

And what does it mean that some people are better at enjoying sex in whatever context with whatever person?

Is it a matter of desire? There are those who are more sexual than others? Or each has his own cross to bear? His "sin"?

Some are for drinking, others worship money and the rest are for promiscuous sex?

And why was I not interested? Someone who is gorgeous, physically attractive, desirous in every possible sense of the word, yet something was amiss..

Was I finally facing the fact that I was a helpless "bottom"?? because I can't find one good reason why I wouldn't want to ravish the butt of such a willing hottie..

Or is it just the classical "I am sorry honey, I am a little tired today"?

Or even better, "I have a headache tonight"!

Or was it the other sad queen who jinxed it? I can't believe someone would be that upfront and obvious about "getting some buttwork" in such an insipid manner! Well, if he wants some "buttwork" done then he should go to a plumber, one that specializes in this kind of work, and whose posters all over sleazy gay porn…

Did I mention that I despise the term "buddy" as a term of endearment?